Healing is not linear.
Repeat after me: healing is not linear.
Then try not to cry because out of the blue you have new pain in new places, you can’t sit up again, and you feel like a deflated balloon (except with energy sucked out of you instead of air….. looks pretty much exactly the same though)
“Okay. Okay I’ll rest for a bit” you tell yourself, as you trudge/shuffle towards the bedroom to lay down.
F*CK. I can’t reach the covers. I pretty much can’t move. I have fallen and I can’t get up.
“Is this being old?” You ask yourself.
You were always wondering when you’d feel like an adult, so is it this? Is this my NOW MOMENT OF ADULTHOOD?
“Wow” you think to yourself, “this sucks”.